[MajestyJo]

Heard many times in recovery, "what kind of foundation are you building your house on?" I was told it could be sand, shallow, nothing to restore it, like water and light.

It says build your house upon a rock. My rock was AA, reinforced by NA because I knew I was an addict, and then I added an annex with Al-Anon. I did the do things, got a home group, a sponsor, a co-sponsor(s) ( three Native American women), service sponsor, and an Al-Anon sponsor. I went to meetings, especially to discussion meetings so I could hear people share, that way I could block out anyone who I didn't identify with. I went to speaker meetings and compared instead of identifying, and stayed sick. I didn't know it wasn't the substance, addiction is an addiction, no matter what I used, it was all about my thinking, working the 12 Steps, learning about myself and my dis-ease.

I always knew God from a distance. I had to learn to make daily contact and develop a relationship, so I was living in His Will, not mine. Anything I used to escape my reality and where I didn't want to be, became the 'god' of my life. My foundation was my God, yet I couldn't sit back and wait for Him to work in my life, I had to learn to work for Him, to say thank you for giving me a second chance.